Why’d I take speed for twenty years?

Podcaster PJ Vogt writes about his 20-year use of prescription stimulants, as well as coming to terms with the suicide of a friend.

Vogt struggled to understand what his friend’s depression was like from the inside and was surprised to learn his own thinking was a product of depression.

I had been like Ahab hunting for Moby Dick, not realizing the boat he’s on is actually a large whale in a boat costume.